Mental Health Awareness Week

This is one week out of the year that I find to be one of the most important weeks for all people. Mental health illnesses affect way more people than we may even know.

Take a look at me, I go to a great college. I have incredible friends. I am blessed to have a mother who overcame breast cancer and is now pregnant with miracle baby number 2. I have good grades. I am in a sorority. I smile whenever I have the chance, but you may not know something about me. I struggle with severe depression and anxiety.

This is something that I was diagnosed with when I was 14 years old. I am not almost 20, and I cannot honestly say that I have conquered it. It is something that I am forced to deal with every day. Some days I don't even want to get out of bed because I feel like I have no reason to. I deal with hurt way more deeply than most people. It takes me longer to get over being upset or broken.

I do not tell most people about this because I don't want people to look differently at me. I have come to the realization though that people need to know that it can effect anyone. It is not something that only hurts people who "deserve" it or whatnot. It can be a part of someone who looks so happy on the outside.

I take pills for it, and they honestly help. But I would be lying if I said there were no days that depression won. There have been many days that depression has won the fight I fight every day.

If you or anyone you know is struggling, talk to someone. Don't let depression win.

A Different Perspective

Now, I'm not one to throw religion down anyone's throat. I am a very strong believer in the fact that I believe what I choose to believe and you choose to believe what you choose to believe. If they happen to be the same idea, then that's great. If it's not, then that's fine too.

Today, I was thinking about all of the troubles I have been dealing with. Whether it was the stress of school, sorority drama, friends fighting, or whatever, it's been a lot to handle. I can say that I hit my breaking point and I curled up in my bed and cried for a little, but then it was over and done with. That's when I move on.

As I was thinking about all the stressful things going on in my life, I realized that I don't take the time out of the day to be thankful for the little things.

So first off, thanks to my friends for putting up with my crazy self. Thank you for always listening to the same drama over and over again and never making me feel like it's a burden to give me the same advice that I don't want to hear time after time. Y'all have no idea what it means knowing I can talk to you about anything at any time.

Secondly, thanks to my family for their undying support. I don't take nearly enough time to realize all of the things they have given up to get me where I am today.

Last off, thank you God for giving me the ability to wake up this morning.

Concealer

Alright let me just start off this post again by saying I've never really been a make up girl. I never wore make up until recently. I would only wear it when I absolutely had to. 

Since Christmas, I have become beyond obsessed. One of the products that I have loved loved loved for a while and just realized it's versatility has been MAC's Pro Longwear Concealer. 

Let me just say that this stuff is the holy grail. It is a little pricey, but oh my god it's worth it. 

It doesn't settle into creases, so not only is it perfect for under eye concealer, it also works well as an eye shadow base. 

I AM IN LOVE. 

Make Up

Clearly, this blog thing wasn't my best decision as I never have time to write…

As the new year approaches, I am going to try to be better about posting on here!

Many people who know me, know that I hate wearing make up. I absolutely hate it. I think it's an annoying process to put it all on. It's annoying to take it off. It's expensive…I try to say that "if you can't handle me without makeup on, you don't deserve to see me with makeup on." (In case you were wondering, I'm still single…)

For Christmas, my mom gave me the Naked 2 Palette and I have to say, I may be willing to change my ways…Now that I see how pretty I can look every day and how fun it is to watch all these different how to videos on YouTube, I think I could go to wearing makeup very often. I won't say I'll wear it every day because well…I'm not a morning person.

Once I find my favorite YouTube videos, I will definitely post them for y'all to check out! I've always wanted to be a make up artist because I love doing make up. I just don't like doing it on myself…

Involvement

Man has it been a long time since I've been on here.

College seemed so easy freshman year. Well, okay not easy...but I had so much more free time last year. Sophomore year has been nothing but things to do all the time. I guess that has to do with being able to be more involved.

I have to say, if I learned anything useful in high school, it would definitely be to get involved. Everyone always says it, but I never really took it to mean anything until I got to college and heard everyone talking about the things they did in high school. They were always trying to outnumber each other in how many clubs they were in, and they didn't have much to compete with when it came to me.

I decided to change my ways for sure in college. I have done just that! As if being in a sorority wasn't a big enough commitment. Put in schoolwork on top of that. Most people would say that's enough. For some reason, I decided that it wasn't enough for me. I went out and joined two Campus Representative internships. I applied and was accepted into the Greek Board of Directors Homecoming Committee. I tried out the water polo team with a sister until a knee injury caused me to be done with that one. I'm always looking for other things to join!

Confessions

This week I came across a blog that not only belongs to my sorority sister from another school, but also a friend from a Campus Representative program through Little Problems. She, Life Is But A Stream of Thoughts, teamed up with The Sticky Note Addict to do confessions every Wednesday.

That seems like something rather fun for me to take part of. Maybe I can even find some followers who find me intriguing ;).

I CONFESS...

...that I have been back in the action of class for 2 weeks and have already skipped 2 classes.

...that I am writing this instead of studying for my Calculus or Chemistry quiz. I guess I'll do that after I finish.

...that I have not started on my goals to lose weight during this semester. Going to the gym tomorrow!!

...that I have the girl I want to be my little and it's killing me not to show her everything I have made.

...that I am running off of a few hours of sleep because I decided going to iHop at 1am was a better idea than sleeping. It was not. 

...that I feel like I have so much to get done and it won't get done. This is the time when I turn to prayer because that is the only way I will be able to keep my sanity.

Themed Events

I wish I could be on the social board to help come up with themes for exchanges and everything else...

Themes work out fabulously for me because I can look stupid and not care one bit. The boys at events pay more attention to you if you go all out as well. Therefore, the conclusion is to always dress up, but sometimes these themes seem to be ridiculously hard...

Our theme for this week is "Your Worst Nightmare." I am at a complete lost as to what to do for this...I could obviously dress up as a pregnant lady because at this point in my life I would hate to get pregnant. Then I run the risk of being hot and having to figure out what to do with the stuff in my shirt. Basically, this ones a no go.

My roommates only reoccurring nightmare is going to school naked. I unfortunately doubt that our sorority would be okay with us showing up naked.

Then there's the boys advice. "Go as a condom." Just no. Not even no thank you.

So I guess for now I will be googling ideas. If you think you have an awesome idea, feel free to voice it!!

There's always the clown route....